The past several months have been intense. Stuff in my life, really heavy things in the lives of my closest friends. Impossible, unfixable, heart-breaking stuff. Stuff that I can’t do anything to fix; hardly anything that I could do to help.
At one point, I found myself crying out to God saying, I feel like I’m constantly crying out to You!
And then He answered:
I am, unsurprisingly, very familiar with this concept. Psalms 46:10 is very applicable when life is difficult:
I think I most commonly image God saying this in a very soothing, hushing tone. There, there. Simmer down. Shhh, quiet now.
When I look more closely, the context of this is more military. Psalms 46 talks in martial terms. The command to stand still in both Exodus 14 and II Chronicles 20 both are commands when an army is against them. This is a command! Halt! STOP IT NOW!
Fretting in prayer is not an acceptable way to freak out. I may not indulge my anxious mind by letting my worries pray in endless loops.
I cannot control the situations around me by praying.
Sacrificing my peace (and quite honestly, my sanity) by praying will not let me get what I want. Even if I want good things. Nor it is a good way to love my friends. It does not honor my Redeemer.
Instead, I must watch. Know. Remember. I will take the same command that Jesus used on the wind and waves (Mark 4) as the command for myself. I will see Him in what He does. I will not force Him into my ways. I will choose to trust He is the boss of my circumstances.
Be still, my soul:for God will undertake
To guide the future, surely as the past.
Your hope, your confidence let nothing shake;
All now mysterious shall be bright at last.
Be still, my soul: the waves and winds still know
The voice that calmed them in this world below..